Dienstag, Mai 30, 2006


Here is my recent self-portrait, a sepia pencil drawing ... before I'll have a cataract surgery on my left eye on the 8th of june ...

At the same time I want to call your attention to a very new blog, called :
"Yid Erotica"
Here you'll find very sensuous shot stories and steamy images! I am sure you'll like already the first story "Chaim and Leah", which is written in an as well sensual and exciting as in a very cultured style.

Sonntag, Mai 28, 2006


Dear friends and readers,

with this post I want to call your attention to a new blog, called :"The Reverse of the Medal"

This blog is created by the English author : Cocaine Jesus , whose idea is, as he says in the introduction :

"The Reverse of The Medal will investigate all aspects of sexuality and NOT just gay issues. It will be an 'organic' vehicle for myself and my fellow contributors to grow.

If nothing else this site will be a platform and hopefully a laugh for those who contribute and, you never know, it might even shed some light on those shady areas of sexuality."
(Cocaine Jesus)

I hope you will enjoy it :-)


Donnerstag, Mai 25, 2006


(Photo by Paul McCurdy)

Montag, Mai 22, 2006


Paul G. McCurdy is a young, very talented American writer and poet. He grew up in the suburbs of Atlanta, Georgia but moved to the San Francisco Bay Area in January 2003. His poetry has appeared in some American journals, like Lynx Eye, Red River Review, and SoMa Literary Magazine. One of his short stories has also appeared in Best Gay Love Stories 2006. More is available at his blog : Zauberwelt

With him, who is also a very musical guy and at the same time an interesting photographer, I'll complete for a while the series about my favourite men of letters, which I started last year, publishing some essays about Albert Camus’ “THE MYTH OF SISYPHUS” …

Here is one of his recent poems, a poem which has struck a particular chord in my soul:


O Cemal—hill, rock, bomb, bludgeon,
all things hard, natural, destructive.
When they made robust men in Africa
they thought of you: your thick muscles,
your heavy brow. You stand at the fire
with your club raised against the jackals.
I, long-haired, know little of brutish things.
I tend to hearts, to the unborn and the bearing,
and spin tales over the pots.

O masculine adaptations! O Muslim, you
taught that the Koran is not a paperback
to be written in. You took me—“gay,” I said—
as your neighbor, your brother. I woke
one night to find you over me, god
leaning down, drawing a blanket to my chin
against the world where I was born.
You taught me more than books and learned men
that love was here before the pen
and suffers still from it.

Donnerstag, Mai 18, 2006


Daniel , one of our blogger friends, asked me yesterday in his comment "if there is a Pollux in my life" ...

OK, once upon a time there was a Pollux in my life :-) but the time has gone with the wind and so he did too :-) 26 years ago :-)

Above you can see a painting I made in 1980 which I called then "Signum 1" as a sign for a great male friendship which should be seperated only by death ...

However we've had a great time together for 11 years, my Pollux and me.

Dienstag, Mai 16, 2006


To hear two American men congratulating each other on being heterosexual is one of the most chilling experiences - and unique to the United States. You don't hear two Italians sitting around complimenting each other because they actually like to go to bed with women. The American is hysterical about his manhood. ~Gore Vidal


Vidal's greatness consists in the fact that he never retreated into an ivory tower, so that he always was on the qui vive like all the great artists before him, who never closed their eyes in front of the reality.

So he is strongly critical of the Bush administration, as he has been of previous U.S. administrations that he considers to have either an explicit or implicit expansionist agenda. He has frequently made the point in interviews, essays, and in a recent book that Americans "are now governed by a junta of oil-Pentagon men ... both Bushes, Cheney, Rumsfeld and so on".

He claims that for several years this group and their associates have aimed to control the oil of central Asia (after, in his view, gaining effective control of the oil of the Persian Gulf in 1991). Specifically regarding the September 11, 2001 attacks, Vidal writes how such an attack, which he claims American intelligence warned was coming, politically justified the plans the administration already had in August 2001 for invading Afghanistan the following October.

He discusses the lack of defense, including the delay in getting fighter planes into the air to intercept the hijacked airliners, compared with the time one might expect after a hijacking report. If, he says, these huge failures were incompetence, they would deserve "a number of courts martial with an impeachment or two thrown in". Instead there is to be only a limited inquiry into how the "potential breakdowns among federal agencies ... could have allowed the terrorist attacks to occur." This, concludes Vidal, opens the possibility that the administration in fact let the attack happen, in order to capitalize on a catalyzing event that would enable it to achieve controversial policy goals under the rubric of a War on Terror.

The Gore Vidal Index

Above you can see one of the recent photos of of Gore Vidal and one with his partner Howard with whom he cohabited together for 5o years. :-)
The photo shows them at the Adams Memorial at Rock Creek Park Cemetery, November 1994, after arranging their own gravesites.

Sonntag, Mai 14, 2006


There is a beautiful Gay-Bathing-Establishment in the center of Vienna, called Kaiserbründl with a very old history:

...The Kaiserbründl (formerly 'Centralbad') is generally regarded as the oldest and most distinguished bathing-establishment in Vienna. The unusually deep well of the building itself was already in use in Roman times for the small fortification at a bridge (proven through the discovery of coins dating back to the emperors Heliogabalus and Alexander Severus). This building structure, later known as 'Weihenpurgkh', formed part of a separate fortified small suburb outside Vienna until 1156...

I don't know if Gore Vidal has visited this establishment, during his sojourn in Vienna in 2004, but certainly he knew about it :-)

If you want to know more about the KAISERBRÜNDL , here is a link to the website of this gay-bath, with a lot of photographs and some informations about it (also in English):

Freitag, Mai 12, 2006


While Gore played with the dancer Harold on a beautiful beach I had my first naive "sex experience" with a boy, called Karl, who was a bit older than me. It was a hot summer and Karl and I played in the midst of the heap of rubble of a destroyed apartment of the neighboring house which was hit by a bomb. I don't know why but at once Karl told me quite silently: "Let's take off our shorts" ... he started and I saw his big cock ... Just as I wanted to do the same I heard my father's voice behind me. He was very angry and he routed Karl and wanted to spank me, but just in this moment my beloved cousin Maria, who was twenty years older than me, stepped in and saved my day for she wanted a photo with me and her tomcat Peter, which you can see above. :-)

Mittwoch, Mai 10, 2006

GORE VIDAL / born october 3, 1925 / PART 1

A narcissist is someone better looking than you are.
(Gore Vidal)

Gore Vidal in his younger days:

Gore Vidal is one of the most luminous and exciting artists of the American cultural life. He is a writer of novels, plays and essays, but also an actor.

In 198o I’ve seen the opulent film “Caligula” … this was my first encounter with the work of Gore Vidal.
But I have to admit that I seriously started to concern myself with him and his work, after he paid a visit to Vienna in 2004, invited by “The Renner Institute” within the scope of the series “Voices from America”.

Born into a wealthy family in 1925, Eugene Luther Gore Vidal has politics in his blood. Vidal's maternal grandfather was Thomas P. Gore, a powerful U.S. senator from Oklahoma.
But it's as a novelist and critic that Vidal actually made his mark. After graduating high school in 1943, Vidal enlisted in the army. He never saw battle and, out of boredom, began writing his first novel. Based on firsthand experiences aboard an army freighter, Williwaw (1946) was published along with a host of other postwar war novels and received high marks.

Eschewing college, Vidal moved to New York to write. His second novel disappointed him, though it received good reviews, and he decided to take a bigger risk with his next one.

Although The City and the Pillar (1948) is now considered a classic of gay literature, its frank discussion of an affair between two young men and its daring suggestion that homosexual relationships were natural made reviewers' tongues wag. Vidal dedicated the novel to "J.T." and loosely based one of the characters on his first male lover, Jimmie Trimble. Despite the controversial subject matter, the novel rushed onto the bestseller lists.

Some prominent critics refused to review Vidal's next five novels, possibly out of homophobia. The lack of attention marginalized his writing. To make ends meet, he went into television, movies, theater, and politics.

Montag, Mai 08, 2006


Leaving the world of contemporary horror I want to return to the beautiful world of art. So I publish today two photographs which belong to the personality of a famous American author who was also one of Anais Nin's friends when he was young.

Do you know his name? :-)

Sonntag, Mai 07, 2006


Samstag, Mai 06, 2006


Donnerstag, Mai 04, 2006


US President George W. Bush will attend the annual EU-US summit in Austria on June 21, according to the Wednesday edition of an Austrian newspaper.

Foreign ministry spokeswoman Astrid Harz confirmed to AFP that a summit would take place in Austria "all being well" but added, "We cannot give official confirmation of the visit by President Bush".

According to Die Presse the summit will take place at the baroque Hof castle, 60 kilometres (35 miles) northeast of Vienna. Bush will be accompanied by US Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice, the newspaper said.

The paper said Bush would stay at a hotel on Vienna's historic Ring avenue.


If you are interested in this topic you should visit this site :-) :
Bush isn't Hitler

Mittwoch, Mai 03, 2006

ANAIS NIN 1903 - 1977

Today I want to dedicate my post to Anais Nin, a marvellous author who is probably well known in large part to all of you ...

Anaïs Nin was born in Neuilly, France. After her parents separated, her mother moved Anaïs and her two relatives, Thorvald Nin and Joaquin Nin-Culmell to New York City. While still a teenager, Nin abandoned formal schooling and began working as a model.

In 1923, she married Hugh Parker Guiler. The couple moved to Paris, France the following year, where Guiler pursued his banking career and Nin began to pursue her interest in writing, where her first published work was a critical evaluation of D. H. Lawrence called "D. H. Lawrence: An Unprofessional Study." She also explored the field of psychotherapy, studying under the likes of Otto Rank, a disciple of Sigmund Freud.

Anaïs Nin is hailed by many critics as one of the finest examples of writers of female erotica. She was the first woman to really explore the realm. Before her, erotica written by women was virtually unheard-of.
Nin, faced with a desperate need for money, wrote the stories in Delta of Venus for a dollar a page in the 1940s.

She considered the characters in her erotica to be extreme caricature and never intended for the erotica to be published. Her writing was scandalously explicit for the time. In her unexpurgated diaries, she wrote about her incestuous relationship with her father.

Nin was a friend, and in some cases lover, of many leading literary figures, including Henry Miller (and his wife, June, with whom she is not officially disclosed as having an affair), Edmund Wilson, Gore Vidal, James Agee, and Lawrence Durrell...

Here are some of her sentences I like a lot:

We are going to the moon, that is not very far.
Man has so much farther to go within himself.

I saw things as a chain and felt that everything
is continuous and never really ends. I had a
sense of continuity and relatedness
between the past and the present and the future,
between races and between the sexes, between

...nothing changes the nature of man. I know too
well that man can only change himself psychologically,
and that fear and greed make him inhuman, and it
is only a change of roles we attain with each revolution,
just a change of men in power, that is all, the evil remains.

More about her and her work you will find here:
Anais Nin